Assignment #10

Exercise 1:
One of my first steps on my planning wall was to research internships and apply to at least one. I thought that the process would be very tedious and boring but to my surprise it was very exciting. Now I know I have found something I really want to do! For the first time in all my success as a student, friend, employee etc., I found myself actually getting excited to take the neccesary steps to move forward. To much of my surprise as well I realized that I don't have to change my major as I was repeatedly told. Although I realize now that additional schooling is necessary, I am glad to know that I don't have to take a completely different path, which was what I was trying to avoid. At the beginning of the semester my goal was how to become a forensic scientist without changing my major. I have figured out that I will have to go back to school, but the good news is I can work in the field while I'm working on the appropriate master's degree! Now I will apply to more than one internship and continue to build my network. My path seems to be unfolding right before my eyes and becoming more clear as I move forward.

Exercise 2:
This is the first time in my college career that I am beginning to make active steps towards completing my goal and sure enough, I did a lot of shaking. I've actually realized that I've been shaking for four years and my fear of success is the reason why I haven't made any moves up until this point. Examlple, Fear is the reason why I have been falling behind on all my classes this semester. What sense does it make for me to suddenly not care about school when I'm so close to being done? This was a powerful exercise for me because I had no idea how much fear was taking hold on my everyday decisions. I noticed it right away when I continued to put off contacting my interviews and researching interships. I would become immediatly and urgently busy and continued to tell myself "I'll have to do it tomorrow." When I got online to research interships I conveniently got distracted with e-mails and "let me check my myspace real quick" that turned into hours of chating and youtube videos. The amazing thing is I recognized it this time and I was able to stop, realize what was really going on , laugh about how funny it was that I was actually feeling resistance, remind myself of my goal and get back on task. When I actually started doing what I was supposed to be doing I found that it wasn't as painful as I thought it was going to be and I actually had a little fun doing it.